We are told that the most important thing for ourselves is to get a good night’s sleep, to have a well-rested body and mind. But we get yelled at for not having perfect grades and flawless marks. And it is frowned upon if your social life is not met by societies’ high standards. It’s a lose-lose situation, whereas most teenagers decided to neglecting their own needs in order to make the people around them happy.
During a 24 hour day there is only so much you can fit in without burning yourself out and risking a mental breakdown. But instead of decreasing the workload and easing up on the things that causes the stress, it gets amplified. We get blamed for not managing to juggle all the things in our lives without prioritizing one over the other. And as the world develops and the knowledge grows, so does the expectations and workload we get handed, but not our capability of handling it all at once.
When we do not match up to these standards that have been made for us, we get pressured from everyone and everything around us. And we have this constant stress factor that builds up to anxiety and fear of failure. And it intensifies as the pressure you’ve put on yourself does, causing a lot of teenagers, and people in general to have high anxiety levels. And it is believed that psychiatric patients during the 1950’s had the same anxiety levels as today’s teenagers have.
A police officer in Essex was diagnosed with dissociative amnesia after suffering from a mental breakdown. His breaking point occurred after witnessing the aftermath of a teenager’s suicide. The high anxiety, stress and trauma he had been put through cost him his memories. Every 48th hour his memory is wiped clean, and he can’t remember neither his wife nor daughter.
Dissociative amnesia causes the person to be unable to remember important personal information, and the degree of memory loss goes beyond normal forgetfulness and includes gaps in memory for long periods of time or of memories involving the traumatic event.
It is not possible nor necessary to please everyone, and the only one that actually matters is oneself, and that just has to suffice at some point.
I think at the end of the day, the only thing that can truly destroy you, is your mind. It is the only thing that holds the power to decide whether or not something matters, or if something actually affects you. Because this is your real life cinema show, and other people are mere background acts to your lead roll. And whether they get to shine in the spot light or not is all up to you, you are the director, the writer and most importantly you are the lead in this show. And whether the people around you gets kicked out of the show or not is all up to you. So what I am saying is, you can write a manuscript so devastating and horrible but still decide to publish the scene with happy faces and joyous laughs. And that is the one your mind will register, even if you’ve lived them all. So never forget that you are directing your own lead roll.
Chose to read this book for my English class, and I finished it a while ago. When I told my teacher I was going to read this book, he said it was mostly a “boy’s book” but that it’d be interesting to get a girl’s opinion on it. I really had no idea it was considered that nor why, since I hardly knew anything about it. Scratch that, I knew absolutely nothing about it. So I looked around for some reviews and most of them were seriously horrible, but I gave it a chance.
And to be honest, I was completely lost in the beginning of the book. And most of the middle, but at the end it started to make sense and you could really relate to him, and his thoughts were actually similar to my own. So frankly I quite liked the book, even though the story was confusing and hard to keep up with.
For the last month I’ve tried to avoid carbs and it has been a struggle since I love me a slice of bread every now and then. But I’ve managed to be strict and really controlled my self-discipline. And I am quite proud of myself, if I can say so myself.
In the beginning of October I started eating according to the LCHF – lifestyle/diet. I know I bashed diets in a previous post, but this isn’t that kind of thing. I just decreased carbs from my normal diet, and gradually stopped eating foods with a lot of carbs in them. Instead I’ve increased the fat portion in my food. Hints the LCHF diet, Low Carb, High Fat.
And I don’t have a certain end date for this, and that’s why I’m not calling it a diet just yet.
But I’ve been craving both bread and cookies lately, so I looked up a recipe with almond flour instead of regular flour. And I found a recipe here, but I changed it a bit. This is for a double batch:
- 2 eggs
- 2,5 dl almond flour
- 3 msk olive oil
- 1 krm salt
Mix the eggs and olive oil then add the almond flour and salt. Mix it all up and pour it onto a cake tray or muffin cups.
The first time I did these I used a Cupcake Maker, and it took around 5 minutes for each batch to be done. Second time, I did them in a oven, and put the heat to 175 degrees C. I had to keep checking them so they wouldn’t burn, since the original recipe didn’t have an exact time for making them in a oven.
The ones I made in the Cupcake Maker turned out to be as small as macrons.